Monday, April 17, 2006

God works in mysterious ways

There is quite a bit to catch up on. Yes it has been a month since the last time my heart was broken. I however, am doing surprisingly well. I picked myself up and kept right on going. Several things have happened to help me see this for the blessing it is.
The first was the message at church the Sunday night after we broke up. It was from Genesis 41:51,52 Jacobs sons were born and named. The first he named Manasseh and said "It is because God has made me forget all my trouble and all my father's house." As I thought about this verse, I realized that as relationships have come and gone I have forgotten the pain of the previous breakup. The second son he named Ephraim and said "It is because God has made me fruitful in the land of my suffering. This is so true! God has always brought me to even greater things than I could ask for. I fully trust that God will heal my broken heart and bless me more abundantly than I can even imagine.
The second reason for me dealing with this so well is due to an e-mail from a wonderful professor. She pointed out how I was always the one making sacrifices. She also helped me to see that his love had all these conditions put on it. I do have health issues and I need and deserve someone who can love me when I am active and when I am hurting. I deserve someone who can take responsibility for his feelings without blaming me for him feeling a certain way.
The best thing that has happened is finding a loving wonderful church. The people there have taken me in their arms and loved me! One lady particularly, Vita she has been wonderful. The church is full of so many people who have blessed my life in the month I have been going there.
Yes after one month i am ok. I have great friends, a loving family, and a fantastic church!